I am here... that phrase just floated through my consciousness... a bit of worship... I am here.
I had a character-building episode during the past 7 days. It was a bit of a shock for me, actually. I mean, I have "impeccable" character, right? Right....
This week I found myself faced with a choice that I don't like to have to make. I had to choose a direction, for better or worse, for my "career". I'm still not convinced I have a career... but as of Monday, I have more of one than I have ever had before.
I know what you're thinking. How can a lowly admin assistant be so full of herself as to believe she has "a career"? I've never considered myself a career person. It's not that I don't work, it's just that I never cared what direction my work took. I'm flexible. I can do anything, be anything, learn... just about anything. It's a chameleon personality that has worked well for me my whole life. I take whatever opportunity falls in my lap and don't question it. It's a gift, right?
Well this week an opportunity fell in my lap... and thanks to my wonderful husband's faith in me and his knowledge of my passions and abilities... I did NOT take that opportunity. Better pay... who needs it? Management opportunity... not interested!
You have to understand how HARD this is for me. I always opt for security, and usually don't press to live up to my potential. It's too risky. I've grown to accept mediocrity grudgingly.
But this week was a turning point. Instead of taking a better job in a career path that I would grow tired of, let's face it, before I had been in it 9 months, I chose to remain in an assistant role with a group that wants to encourage my abilities and highlight my skills in an area of work I've always wanted to pursue.
Eggs in one basket? Yep. Birds in a bush? Probably. But the chances are pretty high that if I never shoot for my dreams I'll never attain them. So... one tiny step at a time... I'm on my way to the moon.
If there is one thing I trust, it is that you don't make decisions lightly. Each one has meaning. Whether you decide see where life takes you or making life path decisions. Trust yourself. I do.
ReplyDeleteWell, my comments were longer the last time but I was curious about the opportunity... I had also written that you have been at this job for over a year and not gotten bored enough to want to leave. There is something in saying that, and I completely understand because when it comes to that, we are similar. Of course, I would think that you made the right decision because you're my friend and I support you, but this time I doubly stand behind you. ;)
ReplyDeleteI may have been more articulate the last time, but since you were curious...